As a priestess and teacher, I spend a lot of time talking about staying in the moment and making it sacred. Sometimes I find it challenging, as most of us do, to walk that talk. Lately, for example, I’ve been feeling waves of fearfulness and fretfulness coming over me, causing sleep problems, night weasels, hamster brain whirrrrrrring away nonstop. I see many small causes for this, but I’ve been looking for the One Big Thing that will make it clearer, help me get back in balance. I think it has to do with passion . . . passion and fun. Fun is a less profound word than joy, which is really what I mean, but looking for the fun is a good start. Passion and fun . . . and beauty. These are the things that put the sparkle back in my life, the glitter, if you will. So yesterday I went out to lunch with my friend Beth and afterwards I stopped in at the shop where my favorite mehndi artist practices her art. I meant to just say hello, but decided on the spur of the moment to have Rica do some henna on my hands, as a reminder of what I need (and intend) to change. On my left hand, she made a flowing vine with a crescent moon, for the feminine mysteries, the Goddess, love and flow and receptiveness. On my right hand, a geometrical Moroccan pattern of lines and triangles and dots, an empowering pattern for courage and action and self-determination. I could feel the energy changing as she worked, feel my spirit gently rocking back toward the center.
With the henna mud drying on my hands, I walked a bit on our crazy, wacky, downtown outdoor mall. There was the man in the lime-green face mask with the rhinestone boots, playing the accordion. There was the honky-tonk band outside the bookstore by the statue of Tom Scribner playing his musical saw. I love that my town put up a statue to a street musician. A toe-tapping crowd was smiling at a solitary dancer, a little girl in a sparkly lavender and green fairy dress and gold sandals, her curls bouncing and her expression seeming to say, “Why isn’t EVERYone dancing??” Inside the bookstore, the usual delightful Santa Cruz mix of students, crones, crunchy granola mommies, hipper-than-thou intellectuals and artists, and other colorful villagers. My tribe. When I went to the counter with my three magazines (Renaissance, The Believer, Cloth Paper Scissors), the checkout dude took my money and then said, “Have we had the bag discussion yet?” “No, let’s have it now,” I said, loving how my whole town tends to talk like a Joss Whedon script. (We decided I should have a bag.) Back home, I removed the henna so I could take a bath, and last night I slept straight through until morning, almost unheard of for me. The henna had bloomed with its eternal mystery, deepening to terra cotta as I slept. Mehndi is usually a ceremonial thing for me, for holy days or ritual use. Doing it on a regular Saturday, on a whim, made that day ceremonial for me. My eyes were opened to passion, and to fun, and to beauty. Today, I stuck a jeweled bindi on my forehead, even though I probably am not leaving the house today and am not expecting to see anyone. When I look in the mirror, I see it. I have declared this day, this moment, worthy of henna and of jewels. This is the ceremonial NOW. What will you do to celebrate it?
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